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Art Every Day Month – Day 8

Wednesday was a very hard day with Claire (for me) — it started out with her cheerful. But her erratic eating, overstimulation, inability to sleep, more colicky crying late in the day put her over the top with exhaustion, but she could not find a way to sleep (despite all the usual that we do). Every day is variable. Keeps me on my toes. On days like this (and the past couple have been a little choppy) I feel anxiety. Just when I start feeling competent, things change. I guess this is parenting!

My art:

art everyday month 07 - day 8 - california dreaming

California Dreaming

Vexed

I’m concerned about Stella. For years she has left the laptop cords alone. They are in several parts of the house to enable us to sit plugged in with them. In the past month she has chewed on three cords, destroying two. And she could end up electrocuted. (Not to mention that exposed cords create sparks that could start a fire or electrocute us.)

This might mean I’ll just use the computer less and operate on battery power until it runs low, then plug it into the desk power cord and do something else while it recharges. Stella still gets attention, a clean litterbox, fresh water and food, brushing, petting, toys, and treats. She shows no interest nor animosity toward the baby. I’m not sure what precipitated this behavior but it’s not desirable.

Speaking of the baby, yesterday I tallied the insurance reports showing what it cost to have Claire from admission to discharge. We have a type of insurance that does not cover 100%, so I’m combing the data and hospital bills to ensure we pay only our share. The total cost (not exact to the last dollar, but close): $62,000. Yes, that is correct. It cost as much to have my child as it did to earn my graduate degree.

Time to make her earn her keep! šŸ˜‰

Dust Mop Baby

It’s All Right To Cry

Claire is eight weeks old today. Amazing.

With the exception of an hour-and-a-half on Tuesday evening, there has been little crying around here. Well, let me clarify. Claire cries, but not inconsolably. Whatever we’ve done — the hypoallergenic formula or the Zantac — seems to be working; nature is helping too, in that Claire’s digestive system is maturing. In the last seven days her intake per meal has increased from an average of 2.75 ounces to 4 ounces. Her legs are getting chubbier. She doesn’t pull away from the nipple and cry, with one exception — when she’s working on the other end of her digestive track, it seems as though she gets to a point where she can’t continue eating and she’s mad about it. I can tell the difference in the cry.

In fact, the crying has transformed for me, or in me. I can now hear more what she’s communicating. I’m more confident in my ability to comfort or provide what she needs, and even if she just needs to cry, I’m able to simply be with her. She’s got quite a range. There’s the cry of Oh! The injustice and betrayal! that happens sometimes when she gets her medicine and we have “help” her swallow. (Tip: hold her cheeks together and blow lightly in her face. It causes a swallow reflex.) There’s the cry of I do not like this, change things now! when she’s put on her stomach for “tummy time.” She loathes that position. When she’s hungry, if we’re too stupid to realize it is hunger and we first check her diaper or offer a binky, her cry becomes angry: Feed me, you dolts! There’s the tired cry, which is whiny. She cries with inflection and nuance; when she’s upset and a binky is offered, she’ll suck mightily and moan in such a way that feels as though she’s saying, “This is just what I wanted, I’m so tired.” When she’s not crying, she also talks a lot: coos, eeps, squeaks, vowel sounds. I love having conversations with her. She looks at me now with recognition. The love-fest is mutual.

I imagine we’ll have rocky days, but I feel more settled and able to take them in stride.

Art Every Day Month – Day 2

Yes, I know I said I wouldn’t post photos of my daughter on the blog. I’ve broken that rule twice, but not for full-faced photos. However, I’m a proud mother who adores this little girl, and I can’t resist posting her flirty little smile. So this is my art for today. We play a game. Several weeks ago I began sticking out my tongue and talking to her that way, and she responded by sticking her tongue out too. I cheered this and smiled, and she smiled back, very pleased with herself. We spend many minutes at a time doing this, which gets her cooing and grinning. She almost laughed today. She is such a joyful little girl. How can I help but fall in love?

art everyday month 07 - day 2 - my biggest project ever

My Biggest Creation Ever