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We Are Not the Designers

“But we do neither: we never fail, and we never succeed. We are not the designers of our lives. Life is the designer of us. Life is vast and grand, intelligent, clever, and completely unknowable. It always has the last word. It is the last word. Life interrupts us when we are at our most self-assured. Life diverts us when we are hellbent on going elsewhere. Life arrives in a precise and yet unplanned sequence to deliver exactly what we need in order to realize our greatest potential. The delivery is not often what we would choose, and almost never how we intend to satisfy ourselves, because our potential is well beyond our limited, ego-bound choices and self serving intentions.”

–Karen Maezen Miller, Hand Wash Cold: Care Instructions for an Ordinary Life

Wish List For Christmahanakwanzayule

For Christmahanakwanzayule, I want:

  • to be freed of fear;
  • to be freed of limitation;
  • to be freed of doubt;
  • to be freed of denial;
  • to be freed of loneliness;
  • to be freed of anger;
  • to be freed of pain;
  • to be freed of suffering;

in other words, not to be bound by my ego anymore. And:

  • I want to take the love that comes my way, even if it comes from people I don’t relate to very well, whose values and choices I cannot fathom and don’t agree with.

I don’t think Santa can deliver these. They are gifts only I can give myself.

Failing that, I would like a massage and a new digital camera.