It occurs to me that I don’t always exhibit kindness. In fact, I can be a defensive, judgmental, argumentative, entitled, and angry person. I had an encounter just now that showed me this. It’s not how I want to be. Let me put it this way: I’m not very graceful when things go wrong and it’s my fault. I become defensive and argumentative. When I was a therapist, I was able to help others; I had perspective. But when it comes to my own self, I’m still reactive sometimes. This reactivity comes from a very primitive place.

When will I learn to be different?