{"id":2534,"date":"2008-06-16T09:31:06","date_gmt":"2008-06-16T16:31:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.kathrynpetroharper.com\/mindfullife\/?p=2534"},"modified":"2026-01-21T16:36:50","modified_gmt":"2026-01-22T00:36:50","slug":"i-dont-know-what-to-do-with-what-i-feel","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.kathrynpetroharper.com\/mindfullife\/2008\/06\/16\/i-dont-know-what-to-do-with-what-i-feel\/","title":{"rendered":"I Don’t Know What To Do With What I Feel"},"content":{"rendered":"

Yesterday, in Stanislaus County, California<\/p>\n

TURLOCK — A crazed man parked on a dark country road Saturday night, took a toddler from the car seat in his pickup and beat the boy to death until a Modesto police officer, dropped on the scene by helicopter, shot the man dead, authorities said.<\/p>\n

Passers-by calling 911 at 10:13 p.m. described a horrific scene on West Bradbury Road near the intersection of South Blaker Road in rural Stanislaus County, 10 miles west of Turlock. At least one tried to stop the 27-year-old attacker, who swung and slammed the toddler into the asphalt and stomped on him behind his parked four-door Toyota pickup.<\/p>\n

“In the shadows and light it looked like he had hit an animal,” said Dan Robinson, the chief of Crows Landing Volunteer Fire Department, who came upon the chaos on his way home from a late dinner in Turlock. “As we backed up again, I could see that he had blood on his arms. I could see that it was a small child.”<\/p>\n

—Modesto Bee<\/a><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

The articles I’ve read state that witnesses attempted to stop the man but couldn’t. How can this be? How can adults fail to protect a baby<\/em>? The man exclaimed the boy had demons in him. How is it that a bunch of adults failed to somehow grab the child away or pile on top of the attacker to subdue him? I know, I wasn’t there, I shouldn’t judge. I’m trying not to judge. I ask the questions out of shock and horror, because this news is difficult to apprehend.<\/p>\n

Once police arrived on the scene, the attacker was shot to death. The child is guessed to be 12 to 24 months old, but DNA tests will be needed to identify him, because the boy was beaten beyond recognition.<\/p>\n

I want to weep.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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