Archive for the 'Motherhood' Category

Some Knowledge

Monday, November 24th, 2014

“And so seated next to my father in the train compartment, I suddenly asked, “Father, what is sexsin?” He turned to look at me, as he always did when answering a question, but to my surprise he said nothing. At last he stood up, lifted his traveling case off the floor and set it on […]

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The Privilege

Monday, November 3rd, 2014

She lies on her side curled into a C, tucked under a fuzzy blanket. Her body radiates fever; her wan face sports bright red patches. She moans every so often. She sipped a little tomato soup. Her head aches. It hurts to chew. A whine slips out. Everything hurts, sleep won’t come. “Please come sit […]

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Lying and Defiance in Children

Wednesday, October 8th, 2014

The topic of defiance has popped up in my life in several places recently, and so today I share some reflections on it. When I did my practicum as a therapist in training, I worked at a private mental hospital. In my work with children, they would sometimes describe a home life that sounded unreal, […]

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A Love Letter to My Daughter

Monday, September 8th, 2014

Today is my daughter’s seventh birthday. Dear Claire, Happy birthday to you! Now you are seven, and you are becoming such an interesting person! I am writing this to you, and sharing it with the world, as a way to honor who you are. Like me, you are gifted with curiosity, intensity, creativity, and emotional […]

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On the Verge of Seven

Wednesday, August 27th, 2014

Sometimes I am not certain I have the fortitude of heart — the courage — to be a parent. It’s too late, of course, because I am one. Yet as Claire grows up and into her personality and the world at large, there are times when I am uncertain who she is. The little darling […]

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Baby Steps

Wednesday, April 16th, 2014

You’d think that having support from my minister, my therapist, my Zen teacher, my OA sponsor, and my personal coach, I’d be pretty damn enlightened, but no. Spiritual awakening is a process of realizing how unconscious I am much of the time. Each of these people accompany me through different facets of evolution. This morning […]

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SoulCollage®

Sunday, February 23rd, 2014

I’ve been working on uploading my SoulCollage® cards to share. You can find the link to them here.

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She Is

Thursday, February 20th, 2014

Glimpses of My Daughter at Age Six She is a sunflower-yellow hourglass with a center of nipple pink intensity bouncing, twirling, burbling, squawking like a Steller’s Jay. She is Inside with Peter, Paul, and Mary, multiplying three times infinity in her rocking chair. She is an apple, crisp and fresh, the guitar singing melodies sometimes […]

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Be Mighty, Be Daring

Wednesday, February 19th, 2014

I enjoy creating in so many ways. My friend L (mom of one of Claire’s friends) and I are developing an informal girl group. After spending many years driving to see friends (which we’ll continue doing) we want to create friendships and develop deeper connections in the neighborhood. After careful consideration, we decided to forgo […]

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Remembering Stella

Monday, February 10th, 2014

Two weeks ago today I was spending the last precious hours with Stella before she died. Today I cleaned up the cat box and litter genie, which I’d been putting off — and not just because it’s an odious task. Bit by bit I’m packing up and storing cat toys, bowls, and so on. Evidence […]

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