Archive for the 'Motherhood' Category

Aglow

Thursday, October 31st, 2019

A long time ago I stopped trick-or-treating. I remember taking my brother when I was about 16, but I stopped dressing up and getting treats at age 12. My daughter is 12 this year, and her desire to roam door to door hasn’t waned, in part because I’ve been an enthusiastic participant celebrating vicariously through […]

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Middle School

Thursday, September 12th, 2019

Listening to my daughter talk about her feelings and the dynamics of kid interaction at school, I realize the following: Middle school is “Lord of the Flies” harsh even when it’s a good school; People can be really judgmental, including my kid; A middle schooler wants more than anything to be accepted; the hardest thing […]

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Bleeding Heart

Saturday, May 18th, 2019

Bleeding Heart My heart is bleeding. It bleeds upward and fills my mouth up with salt. It bleeds because of a city in ruins, the chair still warm from sister’s body, because it will all be irreproducible. My heart bleeds because of baby bear not finding mama bear and it bleeds to the tips of […]

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The Job of Parents

Wednesday, May 15th, 2019

“The job of parents is to model. Modeling includes how to be a man or woman; how to relate intimately to another person; how to acknowledge and express emotions; how to fight fairly; how to have physical, emotional and intellectual boundaries; how to communicate; how to cope and survive life’s unending problems; how to be […]

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A Living Continuation

Sunday, May 12th, 2019

“The day my mother died I wrote in my journal, “A serious misfortune of my life has arrived.” I suffered for more than one year after the passing away of my mother. But one night, in the highlands of Vietnam, I was sleeping in the hut in my hermitage. I dreamed of my mother. I […]

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Gratitude

Tuesday, August 7th, 2018

Despite the fatigue and pain in my body, despite the washing machine and the dishwasher being broken, despite the state of our country and the earth, I felt flooded with gratitude this morning as I took Claire to art camp for the day. I’m grateful for: coffee, brewed strong and black friends with kids who […]

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Make It Spookyer

Thursday, October 26th, 2017

My teacher, Maezen, wrote this piece about her daughter and herself in October 2007: Spooked. Claire was only five weeks old at the time. Maezen’s daughter was in second grade. Ten years later, I could have written it. Tensions rise and our anxieties chafe like flint and stone, and seemingly out of nowhere we have […]

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February Winter Break

Thursday, February 23rd, 2017

Some years, our family will “go to snow.” Last year there was none, so I took Claire to Los Angeles to look at dinosaurs. This year, despite there being plenty of snow, we didn’t get coordinated enough to go. We don’t ski, and there is only so much sledding one kid and two parents can […]

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Latest Work

Monday, January 9th, 2017

For the last few weeks I have been working on a painting using a new type of canvas (to me) made of Belgian linen. It is incredibly smooth, and the paint glides on and blends beautifully. So I chose a palette and began to see what emerged. Two nights ago, I dreamt that I was […]

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Santa Revelations

Saturday, December 24th, 2016

We knew this day would come. We didn’t think it would be Christmas Eve. Claire began articulating suspicions a year ago. This year her friend in class has been arguing for weeks that Santa isn’t real. So, she began asking pointed questions. But she would ask the question and immediately follow with a rationale for […]

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