Archive for the 'Journal' Category

Can’t Go Back

Friday, February 7th, 2014

It was 3 a.m., July 6, 1994, at my parents’ home. I woke up, dressed quickly, and ate a light breakfast. It felt like a secret to be awake at that hour. My parents had also woken up. (I was leaving before dawn because it was summer, 600 miles lay ahead, and my car had […]

Read more of "Can’t Go Back"...

Presence and Silence

Thursday, February 6th, 2014

I’ve been thinking about something for a long time, and I keep noticing that most human speech – if not all human speech – is made with the outgoing breath. This is the strange thing about presence and absence. When we breathe in, our bodies are filled with nutrients and nourishment. Our blood is filled […]

Read more of "Presence and Silence"...

Before Putting the Nail In

Wednesday, February 5th, 2014

It’s pretty much impossible to feel anger at someone for driving too slowly in front of you in traffic when you’ve just come from sanding your own coffin. Coveting material objects, holding on to old grudges, failing to pause and see the grace in strangers — all equally foolish. While the coffin is indeed a […]

Read more of "Before Putting the Nail In"...

Enclosing Nothingness

Wednesday, February 5th, 2014

I’ve always felt that inside each of us there is profound anonymity. Sometimes I think that when you go deep inside, you meet everyone else on a sort of common ground – or you meet nobody. But whatever you meet, it is not yours though you enclose it. We are the container, and this nothingness […]

Read more of "Enclosing Nothingness"...

Building With Stories and Tools

Tuesday, February 4th, 2014

Introducing the Cat Walker, designed and created by Claire. It was engineered to exercise a cat while transporting other beings. (In this case, it’s Benjamin Cranklin the Cat hauling two Katinka the Dolphin Ballerinas.) She made this using her GoldieBlox toys. The field of engineering consists roughly of 13 % women and 87% men. A […]

Read more of "Building With Stories and Tools"...

Interconnectedness of All Beings

Monday, February 3rd, 2014

This video was shown in church yesterday, and it left me in tears of awe, joy, and gratitude. It is set in the Sea of Cortez. A group of people encountered a Humpback whale that appeared to be dead but was instead deeply entangled with a fishing net. They labored to free her, and it’s […]

Read more of "Interconnectedness of All Beings"...

Compassionate Choices

Wednesday, January 29th, 2014

Stella’s last days were hard. People told me, “You’ll know when it’s time.” I wondered. But in the end, I did know. On January 13 I noticed blood in her urine. We took her to the vet and they did blood tests and urine culture. She’d lost two pounds in four months. A few days […]

Read more of "Compassionate Choices"...

Rain!

Wednesday, January 29th, 2014

Look at what we woke up to! We’re praying for much much more of it. And, from one of my favorite poets: A Rainy Morning A young woman in a wheelchair, wearing a black nylon poncho spattered with rain is pushing herself through the morning. You have seen how pianists sometimes bend forward to strike […]

Read more of "Rain!"...

Missing

Tuesday, January 28th, 2014

An off-kilter day. I was scheduled to go to school and check in homework, and then make photocopies for the teachers. Homework was easy. The copies, not so much. I went through three reams of paper and ran out of paper for the jobs. The new fancy copier worked well until the toner disposal had […]

Read more of "Missing"...

Farewell Stella

Monday, January 27th, 2014

My dear Fur Person friend, Stella Bella the cat, died today. She was 17 years old. She had tumors in her bladder and on her lung. Sometime I will write about the adventures we had with her, and her many catly qualities. But today, just this. I stroke your fur no purr frail limbs give […]

Read more of "Farewell Stella"...