Archive for the 'Journal' Category

Loss Aversion

Tuesday, March 8th, 2016

I have reached an ambivalent state in my weight loss process. I am so accustomed to 16 years of heaviness. It’s interesting to note that I didn’t gain all this weight until I met Hub and life improved in many ways — materially and psychologically. Until this morning I haven’t understood what happens, why I […]

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Pondering the Soul

Thursday, March 3rd, 2016

Do souls exist before they are incarnated? What is a soul? I perceive soul as energy. When it is embodied, it expresses through the filter of a personality. Personality is shaped by genetics, temperament, and experiences. Does a soul retain the particular “flavor” of personality after the body dies? I would like to think so. […]

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Mostly Nothing Much

Monday, February 22nd, 2016

“In the end, people don’t view their life as merely the average of all its moments — which, after all, is mostly nothing much plus some sleep. For human beings, life is meaningful because it is a story. A story has a sense of a whole, and its arc is determined by the significant moments, […]

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Learning to Be an Includer

Thursday, February 4th, 2016

Experiencing bullying at school is traumatic. When a child comes from a loving, stable family with empathetic parents, it is still hard on a child. When a child comes from a family system that is authoritarian or neglectful, the distress is even worse; often there is bullying ongoing in the home as well, and the […]

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One of Those Days

Tuesday, January 26th, 2016

I’m having one of those days — I am so grateful to be alive. The act of walking, the taste of coffee, the coziness of a blanket. The emotion stirred by music, the brain food from books, the hugs from my child. Greeting the parent who shows up every school morning to be crossing guard. […]

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How God Remembers That Which is Least

Friday, January 22nd, 2016

Yesterday I walked home from dropping my daughter at school, and I passed by a wounded mourning dove on the sidewalk. It was camouflaged and nearly undetectable. In a matter of seconds my eye saw it, my heart said, Oh! Poor creature, and my legs kept walking. I thought — actually, I felt a physical […]

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Monday, January 18th, 2016

My mother was puzzling over this poem by Hafiz. Like much poetry, the best way to access the meaning is to sidle up to it and look at it from the corner of one’s eye. The Salmon Run I wonder how God ever gets any work done when he could just be gazing at Himself […]

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The Incident on the Bus

Saturday, January 16th, 2016

Reflections of Long Ago I am not a fan of public transportation. In most places I have lived, it is an inefficient means of getting around. For instance, if I had to commute from my home to Mountain View (25 miles away), a one-way trip would take two and a half hours via light rail […]

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Spring

Wednesday, January 13th, 2016

Wyoming Sky A quote, shared by my mother in a comment (thank you, Mom!), for those in the deep of winter. Go outside. Even in winter. Mother is waiting to embrace you. I said in my heart, “I am sick of four walls and a ceiling. I have need of the sky. I have business […]

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Depression Explained

Wednesday, January 13th, 2016

Depression isn’t just feeling sad. There is an insidious pull, a lethargy of soul, that infuses one’s life. I’ve had depression since my teens. Talk therapy has helped enormously. Medication has certainly improved the quality of my life. Lately, however, I have noticed a certain flatness of my spirit. I’m writing this post to force […]

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