Coming Up Empty

Despite my intentions of spending recovery time knitting or doing some other creative sedentary venture, I’ve let it all languish. I feel desperately un-creative. I look at my yarn stash and think, “I’ll never use this stuff, and it’s taking up space,” and struggle with the desire to get rid of it. Same with my art supplies. I feel an urge to simplify. It’s astonishing to me what accumulates over time, and if we decide to move this year, a we need to lighten our load. So I’m feeling restless to do this.

Plus we may purchase a stationary bike for me, and where is that going to go? I still have two boxes of maternity clothes in the closet.

I’ve been really successful in keeping new book acquisition to a minimum.

I just don’t know what to do with this impulsive energy.

Once upon a time I didn’t make stuff — I didn’t make arts or crafts, and I didn’t have closets full of supplies. My life was simpler. I read and I exercised. Now I waste so much time on the Internet — I do read, too, but exercise doesn’t happen. And I need to make that happen.

What a disjointed post.

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6 Comments on “Coming Up Empty”

  1. Ambrosia Says:

    I can relate! I thought I would do all kinds of stuff when I was home recovering from our car accident…no. I haven’t read a single book, a few magazines, I recently started reading the Hip Chicks Guide to Macrobiotics, and thumb through Baby Signs. I have started 3 knitting projects and ripped them all out because I can’t focus (was I purling/knitting?). My theory is it takes so much energy to physically heal, emotional energy to care for little one, there isn’t much left. I have given into it and watch a lot of hulu (at least there are no commercials). Don’t let it get you down…there is plenty of time in the future for creative pursuits, and now is probably not the best time to clean house (you may regret later getting rid of all your toys). Sending healthy happy vibes your way….

  2. Karen Maezen Miller Says:

    This is the feeling of spring. Restless, unsettled, impulsive. We use the energy to clean and sort and make new open space. Then something always fills it. It is the way.

  3. gerry rosser Says:

    I go through this stuff, too.

    Don’t make major decisions when your psyche is affected by pain and temporary conditions, that’s my advice.

    And I probably “waste” more time on the internet than you.

  4. Sharon Says:

    Be gentle with yourself. I certainly have been through the cycles of wanting to do or make things that I never quite get around to. I’d say go slow, focus on what’s in front of you, and make one decision at a time.

  5. Tiffany Says:

    Creativity definitely comes in waves, and you’ll be ecstatic that you have your stashes when the next wave hits, that’s for sure!

    And if you’re looking to get rid of some of your maternity clothes, I’d be more than happy to help you there! 😉

  6. Patry Says:

    Raising a young child, finding out what that unique individual needs to thrive and giving it to her, used up all my creative energy when I was doing it. All the other stuff will be there-in more vivid colors than ever–when you’re ready to return to it.