Sigh

As is the way of life, the hospital doesn’t have room for us to come in at 6 p.m. as scheduled for the gel. A bunch of women in labor recently came in. The nurse said she’d call us in a few hours when a room opens up.

I don’t know if this means that we’ll go in and have to return at midnight or six hours after the dose, which could be 3 a.m. And of course there’s no guarantee they’ll take me at any scheduled hour if the rooms are occupied.

What is so frustrating about this is that I’ve been trying to rest and nap, as has Husband, so that we have some energy when all this begins. It got to 91F today here, so it was uncomfortable and we were unsuccessful with napping. The other frustration is that we are mentally focused on this event, on action, and now we’re stalled.

Husband is more jovial about this schedule set-back. I’m tempted to rant and cry. That’s really adult behavior, very mature and enlightened, I know.

Instead, I’ll close this post by noting that:

  • the roofers did not work on our roof today, so it was blissfully quiet (I don’t know if they’re finished and don’t care anymore).
  • Little One was active a lot today; I had cramps and backache, and she feels lower in my pelvis.
  • I’m reading a book of interesting essays.
  • there will be an end to this limbo in the near future.
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8 Comments on “Sigh”

  1. kathleen Says:

    hey kathryn,

    i’m sorry you are going thru this. i understand and sympathise.

    for you it may be a question of the gel. . .but in both of my pregnancies, at the very end, i had similar hurry-up-and-wait feelings. i believe that’s all a part of the lack of control one has, at the VERY instant when you are completely ready to roll and DO something – - to DO the hard physical and psychological work you have prepared for so long. if that is not in the dictionary under “frustration,” it should be. :)

    if you can, let it go, even if just “this” much. . even if for one nanosecond. it will ALL work out, moment by moment. the thoughts of many are with you!

  2. Karen Says:

    Nature’s way of having you be alert for Fred Thompson’s entry into the race! (lol) Since I never went through the tail of pregnancy I missed this particular brand of torture. However this unfolds, you can bet that all your limits will be stretched to kingdom come. Then those limits stretched, then those beyond. This is the psychic-emotional gestation at its apogee.

  3. Emy Says:

    A bit from “Our Bodies, Ourselves” keeps popping into my mind as something that a nurse said were the best labor inducers – pizza, beer, and orgasms. Go try (one or more of) those and be one of the unscheduled women in the hospital! ;-)

    (That’s the lighter side. I’ll also echo what kathleen said.)

    Love love love to you and yours.

  4. Shirl Says:

    hmmm. maybe now is the time to get the lullabies out. Or write a lullabye. Hmmm.
    Hush-a-bye
    Don’t you cry
    Go to sleep my little ma-ma;
    When you wake,
    you shall have,
    all that you shall ever want.

    Rest for now,
    your work will soon begin,
    and you will need all your resources.

    Hush-a-bye,
    don’t you cry.

    Go to sleep my little ma-ma.

  5. Liora Says:

    I know what having a stalled major event feels like. Go ahead and cry. There’s nothing wrong with that. If having a baby isn’t emotional, I don’t know what is!

    I thought to myself that maybe Little One would come tomorrow, but then I thought “Thursday’s child has far to go”!! I wasn’t sure that was the rhyme, but so it is:

    Monday’s child is fair of face,
    Tuesday’s child is full of grace,
    Wednesday’s child is full of woe,
    Thursday’s child has far to go,
    Friday’s child is loving and giving,
    Saturday’s child works hard for his living,
    And the child that is born on the Sabbath day
    Is bonny and blithe, and good and gay.

    Not that I put any stock in the poem. I’m a Wednesday’s child and feel pretty happy.

    Hopefully very SOON. Maybe someday she can read these posts and she will know how eagerly she was awaited.

  6. Liora Says:

    It’s 7:41 your time now. I’m picturing you in a room, settled in, and settling into some meditation, breathing deeply, sleeping, napping between contractions. You can do this.

    I can’t wait to hear about your day and see your sweet babe. Love and peace to you.

  7. leah Says:

    in the scheme of things these incredibly long days will be like the blink of an eye. and soon you’ll be snuggling up your little girl and teasing her for not wanting to come out of your cozy tummy! :-) you’re so close!

  8. Liora Says:

    10 p.m. your time. I just wanted you to know someone’s thinking about you. I hope you are managing to get some sleep, zen mama.